Can you see me now?

Hey, hope that you all made it. The list is short for the protection of my family (those that don't know what that means should probably keep it that way, it's easier!). Lately, I've been hesitant to post anything of significance for fear of how the information would be used but at last I think I can be open.

I'm working on trust right now. I've always been a really open person and trusting of most anyone. I would sometimes ignore my own instincts and keep plowing ahead in my relationship with someone but that has come back to bite me again and again. I don't want to grow bitter nor jaded but clearly I need better balance.

Lately, I've been making a conscious effort to repair the damage that has been done to me. I'm choosing only quality people with whom to spend my time, people that improve that make me want to improve upon myself not those that bring me down.

I've got a great pool of people that I can spend time with and get to know even better. I feel terrible that some were ignored, or nearly so, in recent years while I wasted time with some who did not make me feel like a better person or want to be a better person. For that I am sorry. I think I've learned a long and painful lesson.